Magic Time

It's hard,
what have I done?
interrupted by a phone call...it's not you,
oh how I wish
knowing you,
knowing how you feel,
how you make me feel
the way you feel,
it's weird,
I miss her,
yes I miss you,
so bad,
my days are passing,
more and more of me is given to you,
perhaps you know,
how it feels to be me,
to let go of something that was so much part of you,
pride,
I think and think and think and
then it's you,
knowing you,
I don't want you back,
it won't let me,
your selection of words,
your actions,
what you chose to do,
how you refused me,
the tears,
but I still cry for you,
I will bare your pain,
your empty spot,
your brush,
every night,
every morning,
every single time that I see it,
reminds me of nothing but you,
of how you laid in my bed,
of how you kissed,
of how you said what you said,
made me feel safe, happy,
but I can't go back,
I refuse,
I have to torture this soul,
I have to punish this heart,
I have to change,
I must learn how to live without you by my side,
but I play it all
again,
in my head,
word by word,
my eyes closed,
side by side,
two against the world,
again and again,
only if I knew better...
when you’re stuck in the future
and you can't go back,
and you don't belong,
close your eyes and picture me,
in your sky,
I am your shining star,
this is it,
my magic time,
the beat goes on…
and I shine.